CONGRATULATIONS TO IMRAN ABDULLAH!
i knew u could pass ur driving exam imran! congrats!
December 16, 2005
December 08, 2005
california
I got a cottage with a sea view
I got a regular summer tan
I've been working up the courage to call you all year, ohhh
There is nothing I can say
There are no good words left anyway
Besides people look cool and the world still moves without you, ohhh
Welcome to my Californian home
You don't have to call me you can leave when you want
There's a picture by my bed
There's a light in your eyes
I don't know
Well I don't know
Why you still feel alone
And we were dying from the get go
I was dreaming but you never believed
I was trying to fit myself in the spaces between, ohhh
And you were kind and sometimes cruel
You said all the world's love couldn't satisfy you
And nothing could have hurt me as much as it's truth
Ohhh darling
Welcome to my Californian home
You don't have to call me you can leave when you want
There's a picture by my bed
There's a light in your eyes
I don't know
Tell me 'cause I want to find out
Do you still feel alone?
Love is elusive when you search for it
Don't I know
Happiness sometimes it just creeps in
Don't I know
I'm going crazy
I've been wondering
Do you still feel alone?
I need to find
Some kind of peace of mind
I need to find
I got a cottage with a sea view
I got a regular summer tan
I know that I deserve more
But I still want you
Welcome to my Californian home
You don't have to call me you can leave when you want
There's a picture by my bed
There's a light in your eyes
I don't know
Tell me 'cause I want to find out
Do you still feel?
Welcome to my California
(I need to find)
Even though I'm not good for you
(Some kind of peace of mind)
There's a part of me still waiting for you
(I need to find)
Welcome to my happy ending
(I need to find)
Even though it's fun contending
(Some kind of peace of mind)
I know
I know you can't look back, you can never go back
Welcome to my Californian home
You can never go back
Welcome to my Californian home
I know
You can never go back
Welcome to my Californian home
I know
You can never go back
I know I need to find, do you still feel?
Welcome to my Californian home
(I need to find)
Even though I'm no good for you
(Some kind of peace of mind)
Deep inside there's a piece of me, there's a piece of me
Still waiting for you to come home
Welcome to my Californian home
(I need to find)
I know you can never look back, you can never look back again
(Some kind of peace of mind)
But tell me 'cause I want to find out
Do you still feel alone?
Oh nooo
Do you still feel alone?
Oh nooo
listen to this song..by darren hayes. love the melody. love him and savage garden. total poetry..in this day and age. no hip hop nonsense. just pure, raw feelings and truth.
I got a regular summer tan
I've been working up the courage to call you all year, ohhh
There is nothing I can say
There are no good words left anyway
Besides people look cool and the world still moves without you, ohhh
Welcome to my Californian home
You don't have to call me you can leave when you want
There's a picture by my bed
There's a light in your eyes
I don't know
Well I don't know
Why you still feel alone
And we were dying from the get go
I was dreaming but you never believed
I was trying to fit myself in the spaces between, ohhh
And you were kind and sometimes cruel
You said all the world's love couldn't satisfy you
And nothing could have hurt me as much as it's truth
Ohhh darling
Welcome to my Californian home
You don't have to call me you can leave when you want
There's a picture by my bed
There's a light in your eyes
I don't know
Tell me 'cause I want to find out
Do you still feel alone?
Love is elusive when you search for it
Don't I know
Happiness sometimes it just creeps in
Don't I know
I'm going crazy
I've been wondering
Do you still feel alone?
I need to find
Some kind of peace of mind
I need to find
I got a cottage with a sea view
I got a regular summer tan
I know that I deserve more
But I still want you
Welcome to my Californian home
You don't have to call me you can leave when you want
There's a picture by my bed
There's a light in your eyes
I don't know
Tell me 'cause I want to find out
Do you still feel?
Welcome to my California
(I need to find)
Even though I'm not good for you
(Some kind of peace of mind)
There's a part of me still waiting for you
(I need to find)
Welcome to my happy ending
(I need to find)
Even though it's fun contending
(Some kind of peace of mind)
I know
I know you can't look back, you can never go back
Welcome to my Californian home
You can never go back
Welcome to my Californian home
I know
You can never go back
Welcome to my Californian home
I know
You can never go back
I know I need to find, do you still feel?
Welcome to my Californian home
(I need to find)
Even though I'm no good for you
(Some kind of peace of mind)
Deep inside there's a piece of me, there's a piece of me
Still waiting for you to come home
Welcome to my Californian home
(I need to find)
I know you can never look back, you can never look back again
(Some kind of peace of mind)
But tell me 'cause I want to find out
Do you still feel alone?
Oh nooo
Do you still feel alone?
Oh nooo
listen to this song..by darren hayes. love the melody. love him and savage garden. total poetry..in this day and age. no hip hop nonsense. just pure, raw feelings and truth.
November 22, 2005
native land
back on native land...tanah tumpahnya darahku. haha..today is my second day home and i'm still experiencing this certain surreal-ness. i cannot believe that a whole year has gone by and next year will be creeping up soon. oh well.. just going to enjoy my hols now. was thinking of getting a part time job...but having second thoughts about it. sing theng is in pangkor sailing!! i'm so jealous!! sailing is so invigorating! love the feeling of open seas..but the thought of getting capsized does frighten me. i will ask him to take me sailing one of these days..:)
it's sad to lose a loved one..but even more devastating if one can't grief over it. it hurts and it destroys oneself. allow grief. remove the facade of bravery. break down. only then will recovery and acceptance come. moving on does not at any level means forgetting the loved one. love will never die or fade if it is true. so accept and proceed with life. it is not wrong.
oh i wanna watch tht chinese musical 'perhaps love'! looks good. the cinematography looks really good. oh oh...body shop and mtv are selling this coin purse which has a compartment to keep a condom!! it's in aid of aids victims. did u now tht almost half of the drug addict population in indonesia are HIV positive. it's so sad. they area totally ignorant about HIV. they don't even know how it spreads. this guy thought he would never get HIV by using intravenous drugs cause he thought that him only having sex with his wife would mean that he will never get HIV. but oh my..he was so wrong cause he shared needles with other drug addicts and lo and behold...he became HIV positive. fortunately he has access to retrovirus controlling drugs. and now he's trying to go round educating other drug addicts to use clean, steralized needles. aids in south east asia is becoming really bad. well aids is already 'epidemic'.
this update has been totally random..i know. haha..oh well..teh fats in me must be getting to me. damn i put on! okok..i shall not complain about it anymore. have been torturing my whole family with my whining. haha..
till the next update...unpredicatable.
it's sad to lose a loved one..but even more devastating if one can't grief over it. it hurts and it destroys oneself. allow grief. remove the facade of bravery. break down. only then will recovery and acceptance come. moving on does not at any level means forgetting the loved one. love will never die or fade if it is true. so accept and proceed with life. it is not wrong.
oh i wanna watch tht chinese musical 'perhaps love'! looks good. the cinematography looks really good. oh oh...body shop and mtv are selling this coin purse which has a compartment to keep a condom!! it's in aid of aids victims. did u now tht almost half of the drug addict population in indonesia are HIV positive. it's so sad. they area totally ignorant about HIV. they don't even know how it spreads. this guy thought he would never get HIV by using intravenous drugs cause he thought that him only having sex with his wife would mean that he will never get HIV. but oh my..he was so wrong cause he shared needles with other drug addicts and lo and behold...he became HIV positive. fortunately he has access to retrovirus controlling drugs. and now he's trying to go round educating other drug addicts to use clean, steralized needles. aids in south east asia is becoming really bad. well aids is already 'epidemic'.
this update has been totally random..i know. haha..oh well..teh fats in me must be getting to me. damn i put on! okok..i shall not complain about it anymore. have been torturing my whole family with my whining. haha..
till the next update...unpredicatable.
November 15, 2005
MERDEKA
merdeka!! i am free from exams!!! omg..i have already officially completed one year of uni. i have just saat for my last exams of the year. the last exam as a first year student. i will be a 2nd year student soon...time flies by so quickly! i just realised that i've known all my coursemates for a year already...and also i've known CERTAIN people for almost a year too!! wow...how time flies. i think just the sudden blow of all this has overwhelmed me. i need time to let it sink in...*breathe in**breathe out* my mum and aunt are over. will be taking them around melb and shopping! then i'll be home. zoe's going to greet me with a bunch of flowers! haha..tht's what she said she will do la. haha..it's going to be a first...having my sis greet me at the airport. bizarre...but got to get use to it. nothing much to write about now..just want to shout out...I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE U!
till the next update...time flies like a speeding bird.
till the next update...time flies like a speeding bird.
November 12, 2005
say no!
"you can be a slave and yet free, poor and yet have the world in ur hands"
~wormwood by gp taylors~
this book is just filled with profound extracts. love it! there was actually one extract about how power corrupts...but decided not to put it up. it was really well put though. this quote just makes u realise tht material goods are not a yard stick to happiness or fulfillment. i think once in awhile we need to remind ourselves about the REAL impotant things in life so tht we don't get diluded into living the rat race day after day..for our entire life. this is also a reminder to all who's sitting for exams..do not be discouraged by it. there is more to life then scoring high marks! i wish i could feel contented by knowing that.
SAY NO TO PREJUDICE! being a muslim or a christian or a buddhist or a hindu or a bahaian doesn't make us superior to another. we all believe in one divine power in whtever form we believe it to be in. we all believe in doing good and not bad. we all believe in peace and equality. we all believe in respect and humility. we all are human. made from blood and flesh. all falling under the same species in the huge animal kingdom. do not let a slight difference in the 'title' of what we call to be our beliefs mask the similarity we all share. put urself in the person's shoes..if u fall prey to prejudicism..how would u feel? a few bad eggs does not make the whole basket rotten as well. do not succumb to prejudicism.
had to say tht after seeing all tht's been going on in aus. i think the statement "go back to where u came from" should never be said because we are all migrants somewhere along our lineage.
till the next update...i just want peace.
~wormwood by gp taylors~
this book is just filled with profound extracts. love it! there was actually one extract about how power corrupts...but decided not to put it up. it was really well put though. this quote just makes u realise tht material goods are not a yard stick to happiness or fulfillment. i think once in awhile we need to remind ourselves about the REAL impotant things in life so tht we don't get diluded into living the rat race day after day..for our entire life. this is also a reminder to all who's sitting for exams..do not be discouraged by it. there is more to life then scoring high marks! i wish i could feel contented by knowing that.
SAY NO TO PREJUDICE! being a muslim or a christian or a buddhist or a hindu or a bahaian doesn't make us superior to another. we all believe in one divine power in whtever form we believe it to be in. we all believe in doing good and not bad. we all believe in peace and equality. we all believe in respect and humility. we all are human. made from blood and flesh. all falling under the same species in the huge animal kingdom. do not let a slight difference in the 'title' of what we call to be our beliefs mask the similarity we all share. put urself in the person's shoes..if u fall prey to prejudicism..how would u feel? a few bad eggs does not make the whole basket rotten as well. do not succumb to prejudicism.
had to say tht after seeing all tht's been going on in aus. i think the statement "go back to where u came from" should never be said because we are all migrants somewhere along our lineage.
till the next update...i just want peace.
November 11, 2005
why history repeats itself
"Evil is not limited to people, there are wicked strongholds that occupy the land itself. Every act of violence or tragedy charges the very particles of the earth with its presence. There are powers that feed on this and pitch their tent, making their dwelling place amongst men. Then you wonder why the trials of the ages repeat themselves time and time again in the same place, every generaton cursed like the one that went before. Wherever you tread you leave behind the scent of your sweating feet. So too with the spirit, its groanings are absorbed by the stones, to be played again and again."
~extract from Wormwood by G.P. Taylor~
just read this extract from that book and thought it interesting in answering the unusual phenomena of history repeating itself no matter how many times we have memorials, songs, articals, documentaries, books, we have on each recurring 'mistake' men has made throughout the history of civilization. there may be such a power out there...if u do believe in a higher power of good..there also should be an equal power of evil. newton's third law! wonder whether we could call that 'evil power' politicians. haha..
anyway...can't help but notice the sexism in this book..the stereotypes so obviously displayed by this writer. an intentional one or not..tht i wonder. well i guess even great minds do fall prey to the social stereotypes ecthed in the community since the beginning of civilisation. but i just have to mention it anyway..the source of evil in this book is a WOMAN and all the angels and the protagonist are MEN! why must things good always be symbolised or represented by the male sex??!!! even the master of angels in this book is a MAN! why are women mostly subjugated to either minimal roles or the extreme of 'evilness' roles in books?! the only book i have read so far who has a women as the powerful all knowing being is by david eddings..(comments are just referring to fantasy genre books..so far..) but even then..she still seeks the wisdom of an older man! haha.. a book which has all main characters as women should be written. wait actually i think there is...the 'valley of the horses' two part series has women as teh main characters..i think..not too sure..have to read it to find out!
was watching this programme critiquing movies..i still love all frame per frame animation. corpse bride! love that style of animation! tim burton..you rule! haha.. i will always prefer the old traditional way of animation..with the tiny help of digital animation of course to refine the rough ages of the old. love the animator and cartoonist ludwig as well...i think tht's how u spell his name. he has some really profound work. love them! oh should watch deep throat-the documentary. made by two gay directors. it's documentary about this movie made way back called deep throat which caused huge controversy about the acceptance of pornography. hm...maybe should watch the original movie sometime..deep throat..sex and controversy..the ultimate ingredients for a great movie! so many movies i yearn to watch but all of them will never be screened in msia. most of them are either art flicks or international films. sigh..kl should have a nova! i'll be their loyal customer! haha..patron of the year!
will stop my with my utterly boring and useless talk.
till the next update...lux luciet!
~extract from Wormwood by G.P. Taylor~
just read this extract from that book and thought it interesting in answering the unusual phenomena of history repeating itself no matter how many times we have memorials, songs, articals, documentaries, books, we have on each recurring 'mistake' men has made throughout the history of civilization. there may be such a power out there...if u do believe in a higher power of good..there also should be an equal power of evil. newton's third law! wonder whether we could call that 'evil power' politicians. haha..
anyway...can't help but notice the sexism in this book..the stereotypes so obviously displayed by this writer. an intentional one or not..tht i wonder. well i guess even great minds do fall prey to the social stereotypes ecthed in the community since the beginning of civilisation. but i just have to mention it anyway..the source of evil in this book is a WOMAN and all the angels and the protagonist are MEN! why must things good always be symbolised or represented by the male sex??!!! even the master of angels in this book is a MAN! why are women mostly subjugated to either minimal roles or the extreme of 'evilness' roles in books?! the only book i have read so far who has a women as the powerful all knowing being is by david eddings..(comments are just referring to fantasy genre books..so far..) but even then..she still seeks the wisdom of an older man! haha.. a book which has all main characters as women should be written. wait actually i think there is...the 'valley of the horses' two part series has women as teh main characters..i think..not too sure..have to read it to find out!
was watching this programme critiquing movies..i still love all frame per frame animation. corpse bride! love that style of animation! tim burton..you rule! haha.. i will always prefer the old traditional way of animation..with the tiny help of digital animation of course to refine the rough ages of the old. love the animator and cartoonist ludwig as well...i think tht's how u spell his name. he has some really profound work. love them! oh should watch deep throat-the documentary. made by two gay directors. it's documentary about this movie made way back called deep throat which caused huge controversy about the acceptance of pornography. hm...maybe should watch the original movie sometime..deep throat..sex and controversy..the ultimate ingredients for a great movie! so many movies i yearn to watch but all of them will never be screened in msia. most of them are either art flicks or international films. sigh..kl should have a nova! i'll be their loyal customer! haha..patron of the year!
will stop my with my utterly boring and useless talk.
till the next update...lux luciet!
November 09, 2005
a bummer
bio paper done! 3 more to go. will not comment on bio...the results can go either way...but i have a feeling it is leaning on the 'not so good' side..sigh..what a bummer. oh well...what is done is done. one good thing though..everyone found it tough! haha..well not everyone..but most! so at least i know i'm the majority...haha no matter how hard i would want to be the minority super geniuses..hopefully our scores will be moderated..and everyone will do averagely well then the average will become a high d anyway! woohoo!! haha..hoping and praying . anyway..phhysics is next..a torture..then there's maths..another big hurdle..then my last but not least..programming! unfortunately i can't go 'yay, programming is chicken feet la' cause i totally suck at it too. sigh...i hope next year i will have some subjects where i can just score cause i have the brains for it. haha..fat hopes la! i need super brains! wait no i just need brains! haha since mine is not even mediocre. haha..
hmm..will rest till about 7..then get down to work..had good dim sum lucnh with tian and ashish..tht was nice. haven't been out with ashish for some so long. he's a certified bar tender! will definately have him mixing up drinks for me one day. he and annand are alcoholics!! in actual fact i think most of my friends whom i am close to are alcoholics in every sense of the word! haha...bad bad influence. i'm still so innocent! :p say no to the vice of alcohol..oh btw..will be drinking with my mum when she comes over. haha i'm such a hyprocite. like wht the salem advertisement use to read: live life! was it tht or live life full? can't believe they banned all advertisements from cigarette companies. they use to have the nicest ads..eg dunhill and benson and hedges. one reason being they had huge budgets for it...but oh well..still they were good. not trying to promote smoking by the way..if u DO smoke u are MAD! ok not mine to judge actually...the fact remains tht consumerism is based on choice anyway. so if u choose to buy u choose to die! haha..hypocratical statement..hey should use tht for an anti-smoking campaign slogan. catchy yet straight to the point. oh food for thought...is smoking the equivalent to drinking??
it's so warm! feel like going for a dip in the pool..but the thing is i dun think i have the key to the gate...have no idea where my cousin put it. so no swimming for me. counters running through my head at the moment:
- 3 more papers to go
- 4 more days to mum's arrival
- 11 more days to going home
- 17 more days till we're on the same soil
- more than a month before bangkok trip
- 7 more months before i turn 20
- 3 more years before i graduate!!
- 35 years of slogging before retirement
- one life to live
ok..i should get some tv watching going. haha..i'm such a coach potato.
till the next update... at peace.
hmm..will rest till about 7..then get down to work..had good dim sum lucnh with tian and ashish..tht was nice. haven't been out with ashish for some so long. he's a certified bar tender! will definately have him mixing up drinks for me one day. he and annand are alcoholics!! in actual fact i think most of my friends whom i am close to are alcoholics in every sense of the word! haha...bad bad influence. i'm still so innocent! :p say no to the vice of alcohol..oh btw..will be drinking with my mum when she comes over. haha i'm such a hyprocite. like wht the salem advertisement use to read: live life! was it tht or live life full? can't believe they banned all advertisements from cigarette companies. they use to have the nicest ads..eg dunhill and benson and hedges. one reason being they had huge budgets for it...but oh well..still they were good. not trying to promote smoking by the way..if u DO smoke u are MAD! ok not mine to judge actually...the fact remains tht consumerism is based on choice anyway. so if u choose to buy u choose to die! haha..hypocratical statement..hey should use tht for an anti-smoking campaign slogan. catchy yet straight to the point. oh food for thought...is smoking the equivalent to drinking??
it's so warm! feel like going for a dip in the pool..but the thing is i dun think i have the key to the gate...have no idea where my cousin put it. so no swimming for me. counters running through my head at the moment:
- 3 more papers to go
- 4 more days to mum's arrival
- 11 more days to going home
- 17 more days till we're on the same soil
- more than a month before bangkok trip
- 7 more months before i turn 20
- 3 more years before i graduate!!
- 35 years of slogging before retirement
- one life to live
ok..i should get some tv watching going. haha..i'm such a coach potato.
till the next update... at peace.
November 07, 2005
my jap name
My japanese name is 石川 Ishikawa (stone river) 明日香 Asuka (fragrance of the bright day).
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whee!! i have a jap name!! and a nice naturalistic one it is. so earthly...just like me! just like my zodiac sign as well..the earthly taurean.
numb
why rain now?? on the day when i'm feeling good about eating a proper dinner, it rains! there goes my dinner. darn i ran out of fruit..so no fruit dinner...no soup cause i fnished the last can this afternoon..no more pita bread..only thing left is my yogurt which i had as part of my lunch. sigh...it's going to be a loooong night. rain rain go away! i want to eat subway! haha tht rhymes. mum said i look pale from a pic i took of myself when i had gone all nuts cause of studying. studying is bad. makes u just lose appetite. i;m just eating for the sake of eating. eating to live. the next week is going to be full on for me. paper after paper. don't feel prepared for any of them. going to fail for sure. i'm beginning to notice my really short sentences in this entry.
going to kick and punch some of my frustration adn anxiety out now.
till the next update...what is there?
going to kick and punch some of my frustration adn anxiety out now.
till the next update...what is there?
November 04, 2005
china dudes
ok i'm currently addicted to the videos made by these too china dudes. u've just got to watch them! i've posted one of thier videos. but it's the not so funny ones cause i just love this song.anyway go to YOUTUBE.COM and search under chinese boys! u'll get the whole list of their videos!! their 'rendition' of bsb's songs are really funny! oh oh..the guy in black in this video is hot! omg he has a nice bod!! tina and i agree tht they're not bad looking! haha..enjoy the video!
u just have to watch more of them. they even did a version of tong hua!
ok..might as well include this one which shot them up into stardom!
till the net update...buff...drool..
u just have to watch more of them. they even did a version of tong hua!
ok..might as well include this one which shot them up into stardom!
till the net update...buff...drool..
November 01, 2005
story telling
once again my skills at shoo-ing moths out of my house reeped success!!! woohoo!! *pat**pat* ok tht may seem totally random but tht particular skill is utmost necessary when u're living alone with no one else who's not afraid of catching a moth with his/her bare hands. i had to shower in semi-darkness because of tht moth! it just flew in from the vent in my bathroom while i was on the verge of taking my shower!! oh the agony and dismay! sorry..just had to add in the dramatics. :) so i had to walk out clad only with a bath towel around me..into the lounge..turned off all the lights in my room and living area..opened the balcony door and stood there in the dark waiting to see the flitter of wings going through the open door. unfortunately the moth could not see the glimmering lights from the bathroom. so...back into the shower i headed and there it was..the menacing moth settled on the ceiling oblivious to my intentions. once again..i turned off the lights..grabbed a m op and shooed it out into the lounge..slammed the door shut and thus showered in semi darkness (now i know why i have two sets of switches for lights in my bathroom! smart electrical engineers!) phew..tht's almost the story done. after a nice relaxing shower..i ventured out..ears pricked for any sound of fluttering wings. to my horror or rather dismay the stupid bloody moth was still in my house!! resting on the blinds of the glass balcony door..well at least tht made my job easier. after much 'coaxing' and 'banging' of the blinds it finally found its way out into the fresh air. and tht my friends concludes the episode of 'the menacing moth'! taa-daa!!! haha..wht a night! oh well..actually it wouldn't have made a diff if zoe was still lliving with me cause she's terrified of insects. so it would have been my duty as a good elder sister to shoo it out. sigh..the responsibilites of a jie jie. :D
as my night turned out to be some insect encounter gone wrong..my dear family is sunbathing and relaxing at guoman, port dickson!! they called to tell me how nice the hotel looks now after this massive overhaul..how the restaurants look all modern and sophisticated..according to my dad "all look like fusion style now!" haha..they'll be having a rangoli(indian) dinner in one of the new restaurants there. sigh..i miss all these short trips with the family. eventhough they usually were just 3 days, 2 nights, but the most fun and relaxing 3 days off they were. never ever got bored of them. we just havve so much to discuss and talk about..my family and i. the topics of coonversation can be as nonsensical as 'how shit look like when u have diarrhoea' to almost profound and enlightening topics such as religion and faith. and of course family meals will never be complete without fits of laughter and insults thrown at one another. i do pity my mum though..she does almost always unintentionally become the victim of my dad's and us, sisters' sarcasm. however she always takes it with grace. how she survives us..i have no idea! haha..i would really like to write a book about my family one day. if i ever have the courage to put my thoughts onto paper and also to have the will and desire to write tirelessly. another restrictive factor would be if i have the boldness to venture into writing! i have always doubted my skill as a writer. never thought my writing good enough for others to read (thought to self...why am i blogging then???) narrative writing requires a style of writing so different and uniquue to capture and enrapture the reader. tht is so hard to achieve! hmm..maybe one day i will be comfortable with myself..confident enough with myself and also brave enough to put this thought into practice. will writing ever become my forte? *drum roll* "AND THT IS THE MILLION DOLLAR QUESTION" haha.ok tht was lame.
i did manage to put in 2 hours of work today! one achievement of the day! shall increase tht number soon... tmrw i'll be meeting jitesh for lunch! he'll be leaving for kl on the 8th. didn't even manage to meet up with him often. stupid fella too lazy to travel. humph. oh well..will be meeting him tmrw anyway and he'll be bringing along his car!! yipee!! don't have to walk. yippee! will never get bored of his company. he's always been there for me when i needed him. he's been a great friend and one i'll really miss when we start making ur own paths in life. i can see him becoming a totally successful engineer. using whtever wits he has to succeed in life. he's one smart guy.
ok enough reflection and grandmother stories from me. it's back to the books for me. nerd-dom here i come! haha..
till the next update...where have all those years gone?
as my night turned out to be some insect encounter gone wrong..my dear family is sunbathing and relaxing at guoman, port dickson!! they called to tell me how nice the hotel looks now after this massive overhaul..how the restaurants look all modern and sophisticated..according to my dad "all look like fusion style now!" haha..they'll be having a rangoli(indian) dinner in one of the new restaurants there. sigh..i miss all these short trips with the family. eventhough they usually were just 3 days, 2 nights, but the most fun and relaxing 3 days off they were. never ever got bored of them. we just havve so much to discuss and talk about..my family and i. the topics of coonversation can be as nonsensical as 'how shit look like when u have diarrhoea' to almost profound and enlightening topics such as religion and faith. and of course family meals will never be complete without fits of laughter and insults thrown at one another. i do pity my mum though..she does almost always unintentionally become the victim of my dad's and us, sisters' sarcasm. however she always takes it with grace. how she survives us..i have no idea! haha..i would really like to write a book about my family one day. if i ever have the courage to put my thoughts onto paper and also to have the will and desire to write tirelessly. another restrictive factor would be if i have the boldness to venture into writing! i have always doubted my skill as a writer. never thought my writing good enough for others to read (thought to self...why am i blogging then???) narrative writing requires a style of writing so different and uniquue to capture and enrapture the reader. tht is so hard to achieve! hmm..maybe one day i will be comfortable with myself..confident enough with myself and also brave enough to put this thought into practice. will writing ever become my forte? *drum roll* "AND THT IS THE MILLION DOLLAR QUESTION" haha.ok tht was lame.
i did manage to put in 2 hours of work today! one achievement of the day! shall increase tht number soon... tmrw i'll be meeting jitesh for lunch! he'll be leaving for kl on the 8th. didn't even manage to meet up with him often. stupid fella too lazy to travel. humph. oh well..will be meeting him tmrw anyway and he'll be bringing along his car!! yipee!! don't have to walk. yippee! will never get bored of his company. he's always been there for me when i needed him. he's been a great friend and one i'll really miss when we start making ur own paths in life. i can see him becoming a totally successful engineer. using whtever wits he has to succeed in life. he's one smart guy.
ok enough reflection and grandmother stories from me. it's back to the books for me. nerd-dom here i come! haha..
till the next update...where have all those years gone?
October 31, 2005
brain malfunctioning
physics is driving me mad! i'm starting to hyperventilate just at the thought of it! this is so bad! hate physics!!! tell me..wht am i doing in engineering again?? haha..hate exams.despise exams. exams are bad for the health and mental state. the only benefit of having exams is having the priviledge of becoming slightly more knowledgable leading up to "D" day and then only to have ur intelligence level plummet to almost zilch while still retaining the few 'know hows of the world' stuck in ur head. it's so pointless! everyday 'drilling' and hands on experiences are worth a trillion times more than 3 hours of writing on a blank sheet of paper. i think i'll definately learn more and also retain more info in my head than cramming for exams. change the bloody education system already!!! it's too ancient for ppl like me! haha.. one out of many of the old traditions of the world...exams. must have been china and those stupid imperial exams which has influenced the whole world in becoming 'mugging' orientated. chinese..too smart for our own good..haha complete info overload has drained me of any sense left in me..hence the rambling and utter nonsense. brain going into overdrive! i think i AM becoming less intelligent as i grow older. brain cells are diminishing in significant numbers! as my bio lecturer once said...brains cells die as we age. hence the roles of lecturers and students theoratically should be reversed! if tht ever happened i will abolish exams for good. i'll be one of the few lecturers now who see the pointlessness in having exams.
ok back to work for me. back to the torture of trying to comprehend the in comprehensible!
till the next update...i just want the brain of a genius..is tht too much to ask for?
ok back to work for me. back to the torture of trying to comprehend the in comprehensible!
till the next update...i just want the brain of a genius..is tht too much to ask for?
October 29, 2005
i just can't wait
i can't wait to decorate and furnish our new place!!! it's going to be so exciting! have to put my interior decorating skills to the test! i can't wait! met the landlord today who's a chilian. nice person and pretty easy going as well. everything will be finalized by next saturday. can't wait to get everything on the move next year. i already have an image of what i would like our lounge to look like..but of course there must be a mutual agreement on the style and theme..and of course if the budget permits. it's going to be so much fun. i've always wanted to do interior dec. just love furnishing and making images in my head a reality. i can't wait to hold a house warming party as well. i just love entertaining..especially when the venue and atmosphere is right. CAN'T WAIT! i think i've repeated that phrase quite a number of times..haha oh well what to do..i am easily excitable!! erm..no sexual connotations intended.
oh another 'i can't wait' thing i'm soo looking forward to..my mum coming to melb..and then followed by me returning home! can't wait to take her shopping and also eating! can't wait to take her to the theatres...watch some good plays..can't wait to show her the new apartment...can't wait to have family near me! i can't wait to go home cause then it means i can shop! haha..omg starting to sound like a shopaholic! i want to change my wardrobe to a more 'my style' kind of thing. trying to find my style actually.i want to find a style i can call my own. have all my clothings in tht 'style' so i won't dislike whtever i pull on. everything will be articles tht i love and would want to wear. ok tht doesn't really makes sense..but i think u get the picture. tht's a lot of 'i want' huh..i just have so many ideas in me. haha. ideas just pertaining to my own being...haha..selfish me. oh well u've got to be selfish in some things. then u'll be a happier person. dun get me wrong..i love to give ppl things as well..i'm happy when i see others happy!! love to give ppl little surprises every now and again. just to see the looks on their faces...priceless.
i can't wait to go home and a certain person a huge hug!! can't wait to go home to spend time with this certain person. can't wait to have long awaited conversations about nothingness with my 'ever willing to listen ear'...haha...can't wait to be in the arms of the one i love..just can't wait!!! can't wait for exams to be over then everything will start moving towards more relaxation and more happy moments...
till the next update...I JUST CAN'T WAIT!!
oh another 'i can't wait' thing i'm soo looking forward to..my mum coming to melb..and then followed by me returning home! can't wait to take her shopping and also eating! can't wait to take her to the theatres...watch some good plays..can't wait to show her the new apartment...can't wait to have family near me! i can't wait to go home cause then it means i can shop! haha..omg starting to sound like a shopaholic! i want to change my wardrobe to a more 'my style' kind of thing. trying to find my style actually.i want to find a style i can call my own. have all my clothings in tht 'style' so i won't dislike whtever i pull on. everything will be articles tht i love and would want to wear. ok tht doesn't really makes sense..but i think u get the picture. tht's a lot of 'i want' huh..i just have so many ideas in me. haha. ideas just pertaining to my own being...haha..selfish me. oh well u've got to be selfish in some things. then u'll be a happier person. dun get me wrong..i love to give ppl things as well..i'm happy when i see others happy!! love to give ppl little surprises every now and again. just to see the looks on their faces...priceless.
i can't wait to go home and a certain person a huge hug!! can't wait to go home to spend time with this certain person. can't wait to have long awaited conversations about nothingness with my 'ever willing to listen ear'...haha...can't wait to be in the arms of the one i love..just can't wait!!! can't wait for exams to be over then everything will start moving towards more relaxation and more happy moments...
till the next update...I JUST CAN'T WAIT!!
October 26, 2005
dilemma
which is better...a lie tht draws a smile or the truth tht draws a tear? when u come to a hard decision as this one...i would probably tell the truth..don't u think causing pain would be better than living a lie? cause at least the pain would be just for a certain period of time. time DOES heal all wounds anyway. but to live a lie..tht will be hard. it'll be hard on ur part cause then u'll be tormented mentally day and night, and it'll be hard for the other party as well cause the higher u put them the harder they'll fall. if tht even makes sense. i guess it's like the longer the lie is maintained the more pain it'll cause. so causing a smaller degree of pain is better than causing a higher degree of pain. hmm..ok just a note..but htis entry has nothing to do with anythign personal i'm experiencing now. just read a friend's nick and i just thought it'll be interesting to mention it in my blog. i think most of us have come across a situation where we had to make a decision similar to tht. it's a tough life. :S guts is all we need to get through it. guts!
i shoudl be studying but yet again something always pops up to distract me. had a wonderful italian meal with family friends today. i just love to have old familiar faces around me. just needed tht to perk me up! wht perfect timing. well..back to the books i go!
till the next update...unspoken words says more.
i shoudl be studying but yet again something always pops up to distract me. had a wonderful italian meal with family friends today. i just love to have old familiar faces around me. just needed tht to perk me up! wht perfect timing. well..back to the books i go!
till the next update...unspoken words says more.
October 23, 2005
dum dee dum
u know when i'm not in the mood to do anyhing else but bum and slack when my blog keeps updating! haha.. not in the studying mood at all..and exams are only 2 weeks away. i need motivation! i need my muse... muse of the sciences..if there ever is such a muse. muses are for inspiration..so can there be a muse for analytical thinking and memory power? i need a miracle now! something to jolt me back into study mode..not tht i have ever been in the mode. can't remember the last time i was ever in tht mode actually. probably the only time was when erm...in trinity when i was a diligent library goer..which actually only lasted for a semester i think..or less. the time now is 1153..shoudl i study or just go to bed and hopefully gain some motivation to study the night through tmrw?? hmm..maybe i shall just look through some notes..not like tht will help. i'm such a bum!
till the next update...exams=mental torture!
till the next update...exams=mental torture!
October 21, 2005
life's too short
my condolences to jeremy who just lost a friend to pneumonia.. and also to joann who knew this same person as a second degree friend. so many misfortunes in such a short time. what else can there be said in times like these but just 'i'm sorry'. the circle of life..i guess the way to make everything seem better is by looking at it as the passing of one gives life to another unborn child somewhere in the world ready to be conceived. somehow this belief of everlasting life or spirit of a person makes it all seem more worthwhile.
life's to short to not have lived. but wht's there to live when we are bounded by so many restrictions? yes..we can only begin 'living' when we have a proper education..when we have made something of ourselves.. oh well i guess how we see 'living' is relative.
peer into the window
the window of light
what do u see?
i see a soul
a soul with aim
a soul with purpose
a dark shadow approaches
sucking the light
speckless of white
all lost
shattered
redundant it was
all dreams
all hopes
but halt i say
a glow beyond
calls my attention
weak as it appears
strength is within
grow i say
grow
embrace me
return what i have lost
devour me
take over the gloom
a new turn
a new chance
take the risk
reciprocate with gusto
life's too short
my really sad attempt in poetry writing. oh well too filled with emotions to do anything else but write.
till the next update...it's better to have loved than not have loved at all.
life's to short to not have lived. but wht's there to live when we are bounded by so many restrictions? yes..we can only begin 'living' when we have a proper education..when we have made something of ourselves.. oh well i guess how we see 'living' is relative.
peer into the window
the window of light
what do u see?
i see a soul
a soul with aim
a soul with purpose
a dark shadow approaches
sucking the light
speckless of white
all lost
shattered
redundant it was
all dreams
all hopes
but halt i say
a glow beyond
calls my attention
weak as it appears
strength is within
grow i say
grow
embrace me
return what i have lost
devour me
take over the gloom
a new turn
a new chance
take the risk
reciprocate with gusto
life's too short
my really sad attempt in poetry writing. oh well too filled with emotions to do anything else but write.
till the next update...it's better to have loved than not have loved at all.
October 19, 2005
maths rules?
maths rules?? haha..i cannot imagine the amount of maths i'm expected to know!! argh!! it's getting so hard! drowning in numbers and formulas and theorems and rules! argh!!! this is the hardest maths assignment by far! i'm practically tearing my hair out trying to figure out a way to make logic out of nothing. i need my logical, analytical brain to function. doesn't seem to be able to get cranking though. tiredness suddenly seem to overpower me...the bed looks so tempting..
i miss ur smile, i miss ur voice, i miss ur touch, i miss ur gaze...
hard at work i shall now swear to be!
till the next update...i am shouting because of the estrogen.
i miss ur smile, i miss ur voice, i miss ur touch, i miss ur gaze...
hard at work i shall now swear to be!
till the next update...i am shouting because of the estrogen.
October 12, 2005
life bounded by questions
how do u know when u've found the thing u want the most? how do u know that what u have now is what u want for the rest of u life? how do u know that u've made the right choice today for tommorrow? how do u know...
how are u suppose to make up ur mind when the future is so uncertain..when nothing is permenant...when there's doubt in the air...how?
live for the moment. that's what everyone will end up saying. why bother finding answers to the unanswerable? just live life! but how can u live life when u don't know what makes ur life fulfilled? how can u live life when there's still a hole in your life? isn't living life suppose to be living it for ur happiness, for self fulfillment? how can u just go on each day and not think about the emptiness inside? isn't that just fooling urself to believing that u are fulfilled?
what is it that i want in life? what is my aim in living onr this planet? why am i here? am i filling a gap in the whole tapestry of life? but isn't life just living? we are animals... which live and die. aren't our roles equivalent to even the tiniest of living organism on earth? if so, shouldn't we live to just procreate? i just feel like doing what the following lyrics say. we should live like animals once in awhile. just foeget everything we've become disillutioned with. just live based on instincts..carefree and impulsive.
When superstars and cannonballs are running through your head
A television freak show cops and robbers everywhere
Subway makes me nervous people pushing me too far
I've got to break away
So take my hand now
Chorus
cause I want to live like animals
Careless and free like animals
I want to live
I want to run through the jungle
The wind in my hair and the sand at my feet
I've been having difficulties keeping to myself
Feelings and emotions better left up on the shelf
Animals and children tell the truth they never lie
Which one is more human
There's a thought now you decide
Compassion in the jungle
Compassion in your hands yeah
Would you like to make a run for it
Would you like to take my hand yeah
Chorus
Sometimes this life can get you down
It's so confusing
There's so many rules to follow
And I feel it
cause I just run away in my mind
Superstars and cannonballs running through your head
Television freak show cops and robbers everywhere
Animals and children tell the truth they never lie
Which one is more human
There's a thought now you decide
Compassion in the jungle
Compassion in your hands yeah
Would you like to make a run for it
Would you like to take my hand yeah
~SAVAGE GARDEN~
till the next update...everything looks perfect from far away.
how are u suppose to make up ur mind when the future is so uncertain..when nothing is permenant...when there's doubt in the air...how?
live for the moment. that's what everyone will end up saying. why bother finding answers to the unanswerable? just live life! but how can u live life when u don't know what makes ur life fulfilled? how can u live life when there's still a hole in your life? isn't living life suppose to be living it for ur happiness, for self fulfillment? how can u just go on each day and not think about the emptiness inside? isn't that just fooling urself to believing that u are fulfilled?
what is it that i want in life? what is my aim in living onr this planet? why am i here? am i filling a gap in the whole tapestry of life? but isn't life just living? we are animals... which live and die. aren't our roles equivalent to even the tiniest of living organism on earth? if so, shouldn't we live to just procreate? i just feel like doing what the following lyrics say. we should live like animals once in awhile. just foeget everything we've become disillutioned with. just live based on instincts..carefree and impulsive.
When superstars and cannonballs are running through your head
A television freak show cops and robbers everywhere
Subway makes me nervous people pushing me too far
I've got to break away
So take my hand now
Chorus
cause I want to live like animals
Careless and free like animals
I want to live
I want to run through the jungle
The wind in my hair and the sand at my feet
I've been having difficulties keeping to myself
Feelings and emotions better left up on the shelf
Animals and children tell the truth they never lie
Which one is more human
There's a thought now you decide
Compassion in the jungle
Compassion in your hands yeah
Would you like to make a run for it
Would you like to take my hand yeah
Chorus
Sometimes this life can get you down
It's so confusing
There's so many rules to follow
And I feel it
cause I just run away in my mind
Superstars and cannonballs running through your head
Television freak show cops and robbers everywhere
Animals and children tell the truth they never lie
Which one is more human
There's a thought now you decide
Compassion in the jungle
Compassion in your hands yeah
Would you like to make a run for it
Would you like to take my hand yeah
~SAVAGE GARDEN~
till the next update...everything looks perfect from far away.
October 08, 2005
up and about
i've suddenly become more impulsive in my decisions..thanks to tina! haha..today did the most "mo liew" (say it in canto) thing! just sat on the tram going up and down streets in hope of finding a real estate office with tina. then..suddenly out of the blue we decided to have fish and chips as port melbourne! unfortuantely the sky was grey with patches of blue in between 'cloud migration'... i called it tht cause of the irritating melb rain whereby it rains then stops almost as suddenly as it began due to the strong winds blowing the clouds away. but oh well we did manage to eat port melbourne fish and chips at the world famous REX HUNT'S seafood restaurant! (who in the world is rex hunt?? he even has merchandises on sale which includes video tapes of him!)anyway, had lovely thick chips with a generously batter covered fish fillet accompanied by lemon and of course the traditional tartare sauce! then had pisang goreng to satisfy my sweet tooth! hah..feel so contented. nothing beats food when it comes to filling tht 'emptiness' inside u. some random pictures of us while getting high on salty sea breeze!
oh this one was taken when both of us were still 'sober'. NOTICE THE LION KING T-SHIRT!!
look caused by "seagull shitting on head" phobia.
newton's 3rd law : for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.
just discovered tht i dun really know the city tht well. came across this pedestrian walkthrough along bourke street which has cafes...looks really quaint and it reminds me of sydney. got to go and discover hidden treasures in the city before i graduate! tht's my aim in melbourne! have to go good food scouting as well. can't tahan surviving on 'student food'. must indulge once in awhile..hehe.
melbourne weather is getting on my nerves. so cold and wet! i want the warmth! argh!!! ok i'm off to continue with my bumming.
until the next update...never say 'never'.
oh this one was taken when both of us were still 'sober'. NOTICE THE LION KING T-SHIRT!!
look caused by "seagull shitting on head" phobia.
newton's 3rd law : for every action, there is an equal and opposite reaction.
just discovered tht i dun really know the city tht well. came across this pedestrian walkthrough along bourke street which has cafes...looks really quaint and it reminds me of sydney. got to go and discover hidden treasures in the city before i graduate! tht's my aim in melbourne! have to go good food scouting as well. can't tahan surviving on 'student food'. must indulge once in awhile..hehe.
melbourne weather is getting on my nerves. so cold and wet! i want the warmth! argh!!! ok i'm off to continue with my bumming.
until the next update...never say 'never'.
October 01, 2005
post hols syndrome
lazy, lazy ,lazy. tht's the best words to describe what i'm feeling at the moment. have not been getting any work done since coming back from sydney. omg..sydney..the food!!! craving for it already! why can't melbourne have a pancake on the rocks or a kobe jones. those two restaurants are a must visit when in sydney! oh my pictures are up on multiply go to http://saigon86.multiply.com and also to chee yoong's site http://scyoong.multiply.com. all the pics are up in those two sites. ok this will be a short post. dun really know wat to blog about today.
till the next update...comfortable in ur presence.
till the next update...comfortable in ur presence.
September 24, 2005
sydney
i'm currently sitting in chee yoong's chair while posting this which means i'm in SYDNEY!!! it's so much warmer than melb here but as usual the wind sends chills running down ur spine. the city centre is one big maze!! well actually its not that hard to get lost once u get use to it..but melb is so much more organized! and the streets are so narrow..cars are practically almost brushing past one another.
so far the trip has been all about eating! one gastronomical experience after another. since touching down on sydney soil..i have eaten fusion japanese (food to die for!), fresh seafood from the fish market, pancake on the rocks, emperor's pao (is actually custard filled cream puffs which are addictive), chocolate dessert from lindt cafe, thai, a huge portion of peking style fried noodles and of course the ever famous mcd's! phew...tht's a lot of food! i cannot believe how much i've been eating these past few days! i've been eating non stop. it's back to the pool and my strict diet when i get back to melb! definately have put on loads of weight...no doubt about tht.
will post pictures onto multiply when i get back. till the next update...eat to live or live to eat, that is the ultimate life question!
so far the trip has been all about eating! one gastronomical experience after another. since touching down on sydney soil..i have eaten fusion japanese (food to die for!), fresh seafood from the fish market, pancake on the rocks, emperor's pao (is actually custard filled cream puffs which are addictive), chocolate dessert from lindt cafe, thai, a huge portion of peking style fried noodles and of course the ever famous mcd's! phew...tht's a lot of food! i cannot believe how much i've been eating these past few days! i've been eating non stop. it's back to the pool and my strict diet when i get back to melb! definately have put on loads of weight...no doubt about tht.
will post pictures onto multiply when i get back. till the next update...eat to live or live to eat, that is the ultimate life question!
September 14, 2005
just another day
i love my new skin! thank you chee yoong for doing it for me!! hehe..thanks for wasting ur time on my blog! anyway i have been 'promoted' in the IESS committee from being an unknown subcommittee member to the new SOCIAL FUNCTION DIRECTOR! woohoo! fancy name huh. but actually i have to do most of the dirty work la. haha..have to organize all the trips and events for the club. oh well..luckily i only joined in 2nd semester..nothing much to plan except one more trip for the year.phew! oh well..it'll be an exciting post to hold.
went to austin hospital today. met and talked to a few practicing biomedical engineers. very enlightening. at least now i have a clearer picture of life after graduating. now is the age of non-invasive technology! everything seems to be moving around tht section of study. it looks like biosignals is not such a bad stream to go into after all. now i just have to aim for h1's all the way throughout my uni academic life..which seems pretty impossible at the rate i'm going. haih..so sad. ambition is in me but the perseverance and diligence is not. what a bad combination!
oh i have a picture of me during the engineering ball!
the guy in the middle is peter and the other girl is ming hui. i'll be wearing the same outfit for dinner dance! i can't wait for it. latin and st latin dancing here i come! hopefully i'll be dancing a lot throughout the night. don't want to end up just sitting around.
ok enough jabber for the day. till the next update...terror is relative.
went to austin hospital today. met and talked to a few practicing biomedical engineers. very enlightening. at least now i have a clearer picture of life after graduating. now is the age of non-invasive technology! everything seems to be moving around tht section of study. it looks like biosignals is not such a bad stream to go into after all. now i just have to aim for h1's all the way throughout my uni academic life..which seems pretty impossible at the rate i'm going. haih..so sad. ambition is in me but the perseverance and diligence is not. what a bad combination!
oh i have a picture of me during the engineering ball!
the guy in the middle is peter and the other girl is ming hui. i'll be wearing the same outfit for dinner dance! i can't wait for it. latin and st latin dancing here i come! hopefully i'll be dancing a lot throughout the night. don't want to end up just sitting around.
ok enough jabber for the day. till the next update...terror is relative.
September 11, 2005
laze, laze, laze
have been busy since the last time i blogged. oh man i have a test tmrw and i still haven't started preparing for it!! how can they have a test on the week before the hols??!! it's just so not right! haha..anyway..went for the engineering ball..it was pretty good. the concept of the ball on a cruise was good. i liked the cosiness of it. music was good to. oh then i went to heat! my first tiem in a crown club. not bad but it would have been better if i went with close friends. haih..oh well..enjoyed myself anyway.
oh i went for this malaysian fest in melbourne at the malaysian hall..it was pretty good. had satay, nasi briyani with chicken, nasi lemak, onde onde, goreng pisang and lots more! kinda made me feel a bit homesick..but it was good anyway. oh and i met my old tuition friend..lost contact with her since standard 6! it was such a surprise..thanks to pei fei got to meet my long lost tuition friend.. haha. at night went to bismi which is at sydney road..and omg we missed the last tram back to the city and ended up walking for 2 hrs sraight back home! tht was the most leg exhausting walk! oh well at least the walk would have burned off all the roti kaya i ate a bismi.
sam passed her medal for bronze ballroom! woohoo!! i think i'll be taking my silver medal for st latin next semester..hopefully..i really really want to put my dancing skills to the test. will have to make time for it next semester..when i'm living nearer to uni. then i'll have no excuses!
jesus christ superstar was really well done by UMMTA. judas was played by a girl..and she had a really good voice! jesus was really good as well. the band was fantastic as well. ju han's musical was fantastic as well..great dancing sequences and the actors were all so suited for the roles they played. both musicals were really well done..i have nothing more to say or comment about them. haha..just enjoyed them so much. went for this VCA concert...and it was so good! they're all so talented musicians! omg..i just realised i've spent so much on plays and musicals and concert..all because of mudfest! haha..but they were all worth it!
another piece of good news...JITESH IS HERE! i'll be dragging him along everywhere during the hols.haha at least now i won't be so bored.
ok enough blogging. have to start studying...hopefully i'll be doing tht though..haha..
till the next update...let destiny take its course.
oh i went for this malaysian fest in melbourne at the malaysian hall..it was pretty good. had satay, nasi briyani with chicken, nasi lemak, onde onde, goreng pisang and lots more! kinda made me feel a bit homesick..but it was good anyway. oh and i met my old tuition friend..lost contact with her since standard 6! it was such a surprise..thanks to pei fei got to meet my long lost tuition friend.. haha. at night went to bismi which is at sydney road..and omg we missed the last tram back to the city and ended up walking for 2 hrs sraight back home! tht was the most leg exhausting walk! oh well at least the walk would have burned off all the roti kaya i ate a bismi.
sam passed her medal for bronze ballroom! woohoo!! i think i'll be taking my silver medal for st latin next semester..hopefully..i really really want to put my dancing skills to the test. will have to make time for it next semester..when i'm living nearer to uni. then i'll have no excuses!
jesus christ superstar was really well done by UMMTA. judas was played by a girl..and she had a really good voice! jesus was really good as well. the band was fantastic as well. ju han's musical was fantastic as well..great dancing sequences and the actors were all so suited for the roles they played. both musicals were really well done..i have nothing more to say or comment about them. haha..just enjoyed them so much. went for this VCA concert...and it was so good! they're all so talented musicians! omg..i just realised i've spent so much on plays and musicals and concert..all because of mudfest! haha..but they were all worth it!
another piece of good news...JITESH IS HERE! i'll be dragging him along everywhere during the hols.haha at least now i won't be so bored.
ok enough blogging. have to start studying...hopefully i'll be doing tht though..haha..
till the next update...let destiny take its course.
August 09, 2005
my resolution
well..here's another long awaited update... these are my new resolutions for the new semester...which i hope i can stick by!! knowing me...haha will break them pretty soon..
1. swim everyday (which i have been doing diligently!)
2. no carbs for dinner (chicken everynight so far)
3. do all my tute problems (hmm...having a problem with this one! haha)
4. study/review work consistently (not helping with the easy availability of the tv!)
5. not buy clothes unnecessarily (going to get a dress this weekend..no!! but i need it for dinner dance...haha tht's a necessity!)
6. not break any resolutions made thus far!
ok..so far...nothing is looking good. i think i've broken almost all of it..except the first two! haha..oh my..goes to show how body conscious i am! this is bad. the 6th resolution is not helping at all. well..at least having written them has made me more aware of wht i HAVE TO DO and not AVOID any of them anymore. fat hopes! this is just so ironic! i can be such an optimist when it comes to believing in others in achieving their goals and stuff..but when it comes to my personal ones..i'm such a pessimist! it should be the other way round! then at least there's a glimmer of hope of me becoming a successful being! haha...oh well..i guess it's all in the mind. intelligence is innate but our way of thinking is a conditioning. and EQ is way more influential than IQ in our success...in my point of view. oh now i have another resolution to add to my list:
7. avoid pessimism at all costs!
let's see how this one holds up. exercising will make me happy! why? cause exercising releases endorphins and endorphins makes ppl happy and happy ppl think positive! haha.. on the road to good health and positive thinking!
anyway, uni life is going as usual. nothing spectacular happening. this weekend however will be pretty busy. othello on thurs, a dance competition on fri, ice skating on sat and shopping for my dress on sun. what a jam-packed weekend of fun! can't wait! ok..enough blogging now..time for me to fulfill resolution number 3! :D
till the next update...think of me, think of me fondly.
1. swim everyday (which i have been doing diligently!)
2. no carbs for dinner (chicken everynight so far)
3. do all my tute problems (hmm...having a problem with this one! haha)
4. study/review work consistently (not helping with the easy availability of the tv!)
5. not buy clothes unnecessarily (going to get a dress this weekend..no!! but i need it for dinner dance...haha tht's a necessity!)
6. not break any resolutions made thus far!
ok..so far...nothing is looking good. i think i've broken almost all of it..except the first two! haha..oh my..goes to show how body conscious i am! this is bad. the 6th resolution is not helping at all. well..at least having written them has made me more aware of wht i HAVE TO DO and not AVOID any of them anymore. fat hopes! this is just so ironic! i can be such an optimist when it comes to believing in others in achieving their goals and stuff..but when it comes to my personal ones..i'm such a pessimist! it should be the other way round! then at least there's a glimmer of hope of me becoming a successful being! haha...oh well..i guess it's all in the mind. intelligence is innate but our way of thinking is a conditioning. and EQ is way more influential than IQ in our success...in my point of view. oh now i have another resolution to add to my list:
7. avoid pessimism at all costs!
let's see how this one holds up. exercising will make me happy! why? cause exercising releases endorphins and endorphins makes ppl happy and happy ppl think positive! haha.. on the road to good health and positive thinking!
anyway, uni life is going as usual. nothing spectacular happening. this weekend however will be pretty busy. othello on thurs, a dance competition on fri, ice skating on sat and shopping for my dress on sun. what a jam-packed weekend of fun! can't wait! ok..enough blogging now..time for me to fulfill resolution number 3! :D
till the next update...think of me, think of me fondly.
July 24, 2005
long awaited update
here's the long awaited update! been really busy the whole month back in m'sai. had a really really enjoyable and unforgetable holiday. the highlight had to be the trip to kuching with shaleen, jitesh, gary, chee wei, hwee yin, jeannie, kit ling and terence. the rainforest music festival was terrific and the energy level at the concerts was overwhelming!! no inhibition at all! oh and lots of booze! i'm proud to say i had just plain clean fun..no influence of alcohol whatsoever! haha. the nights of gossip and stuff in room 807 was totally awesome! sharing a room with two other guys and a girl is so much fun! haha..tht was random. oh the food was bad though...made almost everyones' tummy ached. on the whole...the whole trip was made unforgetable because of the company. the company was just great. it's amazing how u can get along so well and become close to complete strangers in just 5 days. this is one group of people i will never want to lose touch with. thank god for msn and technology!
had a wonderful time eating as well! all the delicious yet unhealthy kuihs...roti..thosai..mamak..yum yum. my mum's cooking!! a must mention! sigh..another 4 months of melb..then i'll be home again..and then i would have completed a whole year of uni. time really flies. oh well...i can't really think of anythign else to blog about.
so i'll just end here. till the next update....paths cross, lives change.
had a wonderful time eating as well! all the delicious yet unhealthy kuihs...roti..thosai..mamak..yum yum. my mum's cooking!! a must mention! sigh..another 4 months of melb..then i'll be home again..and then i would have completed a whole year of uni. time really flies. oh well...i can't really think of anythign else to blog about.
so i'll just end here. till the next update....paths cross, lives change.
June 22, 2005
our body, our shell
just experiencing a sudden surge of energy to blog again, after about a month of silence. ironic huh..me silent?? haha.. this past month has been a very soul enriching one. going through emotions and strengths i never knew i had or required to get through situations. and this made me equate our body to a shell.. i know this sounds a tad religious...but seriously..aren't we what we are because of our 'insides' and not because of our 'outsides'? our body is like an encasement of all the good things in us. it's temporary and we are just in it for the sake of fulfilling our desires and goals. sometimes our body may last till it's old and wrinkled and sometimes it can mulfunction even at a young stage. however it will eventually breakdown and then is when we die. we use our body to hide from the world; for pleasure; for making a stand in life. this makes our aim living in this world a tad more meaningful..doesn't it? we have been endowed with this gift of a wonderful, magnificent 'shell' hence we should use it to the fullest but at the same time maintaining its working condition because without it we will only become shadows of beings, unfulfilled beings. i guess this makes me more determined to experience life as it is not hold back.
pondering over..now to the good happy news! holidays are finally here! eventhough exma results will totally be a disaster...going back home makes it all better. can't wait to feel the warmth, the beach, family, friends, familiar sights and sounds again! this hols is going to be the best! going to pulau redang and sarawak. SO looking forward to it! sunday is 'd' day. i'm leaving on a boeing 747..don't know when i'll be back someday...haha
ok enough rambling..till my next update...strength and optimism, a must in life.
pondering over..now to the good happy news! holidays are finally here! eventhough exma results will totally be a disaster...going back home makes it all better. can't wait to feel the warmth, the beach, family, friends, familiar sights and sounds again! this hols is going to be the best! going to pulau redang and sarawak. SO looking forward to it! sunday is 'd' day. i'm leaving on a boeing 747..don't know when i'll be back someday...haha
ok enough rambling..till my next update...strength and optimism, a must in life.
May 21, 2005
you
you are the one who makes me happy
when everything else turns to grey
yours is the voice that wakes me morning
and send me out into the day
you are the crowd that sits quiet listening to me
and all the mad sense i make
you are one of the few things worth remembering
and since it's all true how can anyone mean more to me than you
sorry that sometimes i look past you
there's noone beyond your eyes
inside my head the wheels are turning
yet sometimes i'm not so wise
you are my heart and my soul, my inspiration
just like the old love song goes
you are one of the few things worth remembering
and since it's all true
how can anyone mean more to me than you
you are my heart and my soul, my inspration
just like the old love song goes
you are one of the few things worth remembering
and since it's all true
how could anyone mean more to me than you
~the carpenters~
i dedicate this song to everyone i know...who has withstood my nonsense and mood swings and to all that have understood me. :)
till the next update...friends are kindred spirits.
when everything else turns to grey
yours is the voice that wakes me morning
and send me out into the day
you are the crowd that sits quiet listening to me
and all the mad sense i make
you are one of the few things worth remembering
and since it's all true how can anyone mean more to me than you
sorry that sometimes i look past you
there's noone beyond your eyes
inside my head the wheels are turning
yet sometimes i'm not so wise
you are my heart and my soul, my inspiration
just like the old love song goes
you are one of the few things worth remembering
and since it's all true
how can anyone mean more to me than you
you are my heart and my soul, my inspration
just like the old love song goes
you are one of the few things worth remembering
and since it's all true
how could anyone mean more to me than you
~the carpenters~
i dedicate this song to everyone i know...who has withstood my nonsense and mood swings and to all that have understood me. :)
till the next update...friends are kindred spirits.
May 01, 2005
reasoning without reason
let's see...so far my days have been filled with rehearsal after rehearsal and feeling butterflies in my tummy everytime i think of the coming wednesday. the emotional and physical stress of being involved in a play...but still loving it! i complain but love. isn't that what humans are about? i have discovered that in certain cases when people complain they actually in fact love what they are doing. i think this also applies to relationships. i mean i look at my grandparents and parents. they argue, complain about one another, bicker...but yet there is this attraction between them which still overpowers all the negativity...love. interesting... that was totally random.
attended a dance social the other night. enjoyed myself so much! wondering whether i should take my bronze medal exam... seems easy. we shall see. can't wait for the year end dinner and dance. everyone will be all dressed up and having fun on the dance floor!!
my brain is in a blank at the moment. cannot think of anythigin interesting to post. i am currently numb from any emotion and any pondering thoughts which have been bothering me. my brain is currently in comatose. haha..CHOI! ok..it's not in comatose..it's just that i can't be bothered to think or feel anything at the moment. it's just useless. uselessness is hopelessness...and i ave no idea where that came from...
right..i think this post has reached its limit in nonsensical reasoning.
till my next update...be true to ur heart.
attended a dance social the other night. enjoyed myself so much! wondering whether i should take my bronze medal exam... seems easy. we shall see. can't wait for the year end dinner and dance. everyone will be all dressed up and having fun on the dance floor!!
my brain is in a blank at the moment. cannot think of anythigin interesting to post. i am currently numb from any emotion and any pondering thoughts which have been bothering me. my brain is currently in comatose. haha..CHOI! ok..it's not in comatose..it's just that i can't be bothered to think or feel anything at the moment. it's just useless. uselessness is hopelessness...and i ave no idea where that came from...
right..i think this post has reached its limit in nonsensical reasoning.
till my next update...be true to ur heart.
April 12, 2005
procrastinator
i'm the procrastinator of the year! my mid semester tests are coming up but i'm still stalling my studying and stuff. i just feel so not into the studying mode. i would have really loved to have taken a year off studying just to go travelling around the world. to see thigns i'll never see back home. but i doubt my parents would have let me. sometimes i think the asian attitude of 'studies first' is not that beneficial. i mean yeah it's good cause it keeps us focused on our goals in life and stuff but it takes away the joy of living young and just experiencing things when we're stil in our youth! there's like people my age who has already seen most of europe and bits of asia. i'm still so 'ulu'! waiting to discover the world after graduation is kind of impossible too...cause i'm sure it'll be my responsibility to get a job immidiately instead of galavanting around the world. so technically speaking i'll only be able to see the world when i'm in my 40's. i don't want that to happen! haih...but what to do 'studies first'. make my parents proud.
if things happen for a reason then if something does happen should u take it as a sign?? ok that was just a random thought. oh went for dance camp last weekend and it was so fun!! i wish it didn't have to end so quickly. i want to still be at the camp now talking and socialising with all the people there. the company made the trip a whole lot better than i'd expected it to be. plus the food and place was superb! star gazing was just so overwhelming...the sky was just fileld wih beautiful glittering stars...a sky i never get to see in the city. it was just amazing. oh and saw a couple of shooting stars too but they went by too quickly for me to make a wish. i have one wish which i trully would want to come true....but i doubt it's possible.
here's the link to the camp photos:
camp photos
anyway, enough procrastinating and to the books i SHOULD go.
till the next update....destiny guides but choice determines.
if things happen for a reason then if something does happen should u take it as a sign?? ok that was just a random thought. oh went for dance camp last weekend and it was so fun!! i wish it didn't have to end so quickly. i want to still be at the camp now talking and socialising with all the people there. the company made the trip a whole lot better than i'd expected it to be. plus the food and place was superb! star gazing was just so overwhelming...the sky was just fileld wih beautiful glittering stars...a sky i never get to see in the city. it was just amazing. oh and saw a couple of shooting stars too but they went by too quickly for me to make a wish. i have one wish which i trully would want to come true....but i doubt it's possible.
here's the link to the camp photos:
camp photos
anyway, enough procrastinating and to the books i SHOULD go.
till the next update....destiny guides but choice determines.
April 01, 2005
trying desperately
i'm trying desperately to keep my head into my essay writing but i keep getting distracted! example...blogging instead of writing my essay! this is bad! i have all my facts at hand but i just can't get myself to concerntrate. oh ya..HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEE HUNG! not like he's ever going to read my blog.. can't wait fro my b'day cause then it'll mean i'll be almost a month away from going home.. and i'll be 19! happy, happy, joy, joy. actually i don't think i'll feel any different beoing 18 or 19. the big difference will come when i hit the twenties!! i'll feel so old! i'm actually a year away from it! oh no! time passes by really quickly. i can't believe i was starting primary school 13 years ago...seems like yesterday. i can still remember my first day of school...all the fun stuff i did when i was still a young naive student in a girls' school. and then the transistion into a co-ed school...stella! i miss those stella days. i miss all my friends back home! thank god for msn! how will ever survive without it! at least i can still ramble and talk nonsense with them via msn. i miss seeing them in person.
something has been on my mind for quite some time now...trying to get the possibility out of my head but can't seem to. it gets me thinking of it ever so often tht it's driving me crazy! i keep telling myself no but the yes always seems to empower it. the possibility of it happening is quite great actually...but i know it cannot happen. it'll be wrong. i should just remain being the normal me whenever contact is made. ok..sorting the mess in my head out. phew! i think i'll be able to survive for the next few days without thinking about this matter. when uni starts things will go back to normal...i hope. wait..but i don't want it to be normal! i want the abnormal happening to me. haha ok tht sounds weird. argh! i'm rambling. just shows that i need to stop blogging and get back to my essay writing!
so till my next update....fate and heart determines all.
ps HAPPY APRIL FOOLS!
something has been on my mind for quite some time now...trying to get the possibility out of my head but can't seem to. it gets me thinking of it ever so often tht it's driving me crazy! i keep telling myself no but the yes always seems to empower it. the possibility of it happening is quite great actually...but i know it cannot happen. it'll be wrong. i should just remain being the normal me whenever contact is made. ok..sorting the mess in my head out. phew! i think i'll be able to survive for the next few days without thinking about this matter. when uni starts things will go back to normal...i hope. wait..but i don't want it to be normal! i want the abnormal happening to me. haha ok tht sounds weird. argh! i'm rambling. just shows that i need to stop blogging and get back to my essay writing!
so till my next update....fate and heart determines all.
ps HAPPY APRIL FOOLS!
March 31, 2005
mundane life
another day of the hols passed by with nothing exciting happening. well didn't get any work done today. too lazy to lift up or open any of my books. i did have enough vigour and energy to go for a swim though! haha. did laps hoping to swim off my fats. i'm too lazy to type anything interesting today too!
till my next update....life is a complicated timetable.
till my next update....life is a complicated timetable.
March 29, 2005
a bbq, a bit of alcohol and a camera
celebrated wily's birthday yesterday! had a bbq at this really nice apartment. loved the lobby. it was designed to bring nature into the building...it had like all the modern angulated designs soften by white pebbles and greens. really stylish! would love to stay there..for the lobby! haha.. wily really was bullied to the max because he was the birthday boy anyway. he got thrown into the pool and then made to drink like lots until he couldn't stand. pitied him but what's the point if u don't make ur 18th a memorable one?! really enjoyed the company too. laughed tonnes cause as usual..zoe, tina and i got high on chocolate..the chocolate supply coming from our superb 'death by chocolate' chocolate cake! i must say it was our first attempt at baking but it turned out really really good. everyone loved it! it was crusty on the outside and soft and moist in the middle. everyone kept asking how we managed to make it so biscuit like on the outside...here's the secret...over bake the cake!! haha.. it was never ever meant to turn out that way but what the heck! people loved it! they were actually eating almost burnt cake. sshhhh....haha.
ever since i've started uni..i think the highlight of it has to be the introduction to alcohol! i mean have drank alcohol..wine..before this but recently i have found myself in situtions whre alcohol consumption deems to be necessary for a fun time. haha ok that sounds really bad! i mean drinking is not bad if u know ur limit and u have self-control. oh and drink with ppl u can trust. my favourite cocktail to date..malibu coke thanks to christina! i think i'm beginning to sound like an alcoholic. actually, i don't mind drinking socially to build up my alcohol tolerance. mine's pretty low...
i'm in a trigger happy mood! i just want to take pictures of everything adn everyone...reminds me of someone..IMRAN! haha. i remember the days when our faces were practically glued to the camera lens...self portraits, embarrassing poses, stupid poses... those were the days when we were really, extremely bored. miss them! oh i took a really nice artistic shot of tina..hehe..i must say that my photography skills have improved since the day of 'the upside down but looks like it's not upside down' photography frenzy..only ahma and imran will know about this..so don't worry if u have no idea what i just said. i took some really nice shots with my SLR too. keeping an album of all my 'artistic' pictures. love them! my pride and joy!
enough self praise..haha...till the next update...be trigger happy people!
ever since i've started uni..i think the highlight of it has to be the introduction to alcohol! i mean have drank alcohol..wine..before this but recently i have found myself in situtions whre alcohol consumption deems to be necessary for a fun time. haha ok that sounds really bad! i mean drinking is not bad if u know ur limit and u have self-control. oh and drink with ppl u can trust. my favourite cocktail to date..malibu coke thanks to christina! i think i'm beginning to sound like an alcoholic. actually, i don't mind drinking socially to build up my alcohol tolerance. mine's pretty low...
i'm in a trigger happy mood! i just want to take pictures of everything adn everyone...reminds me of someone..IMRAN! haha. i remember the days when our faces were practically glued to the camera lens...self portraits, embarrassing poses, stupid poses... those were the days when we were really, extremely bored. miss them! oh i took a really nice artistic shot of tina..hehe..i must say that my photography skills have improved since the day of 'the upside down but looks like it's not upside down' photography frenzy..only ahma and imran will know about this..so don't worry if u have no idea what i just said. i took some really nice shots with my SLR too. keeping an album of all my 'artistic' pictures. love them! my pride and joy!
enough self praise..haha...till the next update...be trigger happy people!
March 25, 2005
dilemma
hols are finally here!!! but now comes the question of priority....should i study or go out??? in a dilemma...haha. oh anohter dilemma i'm in..should i buy more stuff from bridge road?? decisions, decisions... life's all about them i guess. can't avoid them, can't shrug them off. just have to deal with them. i've nothing really to blog about today..oh..watched ong bak. it's a pretty good production. love the stunts and cinematography. the filming style used was good. but the story line was kind of a simple and predictable one. however the other elements of the film kinda out-weighed it. i's a good movie to watch if u like action and lots of hand to hand combats. there's so many movies that i want to catch!!! haih..but the price of movie tickets here just gets to me. can't they make it cheaper!!! i miss the good old days when a ticket costs RM1.20. can never get such a good promotional price for tickets nowadays..haha.. the effects of bloody inflation! oh ya another i thing about inflation..the inflation of tram tickets here! it's ridiculous!! ok eventhough a two hour ticket costs just 10 cents more..but hey it's still 10 cents!! why can't they just maintain the price?? 3 dollars was a good one!! and it's so unfair that we international students don't get any conssession for public transport! aren't we still 'students' with or without the word 'international' in front of it?? we still do what the local students do! it's so unfair! we have to pay our butts off for evey single thing we use here! even the fees must be a light-year's leap more than the locals. this country has become a gold mine because of this. but no matter how i complain i still have to come here for my degree...stupid malaysia got such a bad higher education system!
ok enough complaning and lamenting. tomorow will be a good day..going shopping...but no i cannot spend anymore money! oh into this japanese anime which anthony lent us. a bizarre story...a student falling in love with an alien teacher...weird...but what the heck! it's jap anime! will still watch it. haha... i've been going on a binge for sweets! sweets as n pastries and desserts! this is so bad! the cravings for them just suddenly comes when i'm in melbourne!! back home the desire to have them just dies. but when i'm back here....oh no!!!! sinful!! have to restrain myself...hold back..
i have said enough for the day...till the next update...make your own judgements!
ok enough complaning and lamenting. tomorow will be a good day..going shopping...but no i cannot spend anymore money! oh into this japanese anime which anthony lent us. a bizarre story...a student falling in love with an alien teacher...weird...but what the heck! it's jap anime! will still watch it. haha... i've been going on a binge for sweets! sweets as n pastries and desserts! this is so bad! the cravings for them just suddenly comes when i'm in melbourne!! back home the desire to have them just dies. but when i'm back here....oh no!!!! sinful!! have to restrain myself...hold back..
i have said enough for the day...till the next update...make your own judgements!
March 21, 2005
an update
ok...this has to be the most unproductive week ever. i hae an essay due on wednesday and i still haven't completed my research into the topic. i'm just so not into the research and study mode! went shopping at bridge road on sat and bought 3 items for only $25!!! very good bargain. oh i have to thank sam for helping me pick out all 3 of them. she knows my taste in clothing.haha...visiting bridge road is not encouraged...everytime i do go there i wish i were a trillionaire's daughter!! there's just too many nice stuff i want to get..but the price just gets to ya!
i don't really know what else to blog about...i'm just updating for the sake of updating... hmm... oh one theory in life which i truly believe in...any guy who comes my way and have the 'potential' of making me fall head over heels for them are either too young, attached, or gay! this is the sad reality of my life! haih....so pathetic. i feel so depressed over my sorry fate...
till the next update...distance is no barrier.
i don't really know what else to blog about...i'm just updating for the sake of updating... hmm... oh one theory in life which i truly believe in...any guy who comes my way and have the 'potential' of making me fall head over heels for them are either too young, attached, or gay! this is the sad reality of my life! haih....so pathetic. i feel so depressed over my sorry fate...
till the next update...distance is no barrier.
March 16, 2005
have u ever
have u ever felt that everything just seemed to be perfect..but then truth hits u in the face and u realise how foolish u've been..how foolishly hopeful. it's a phase in life everyone experiences i guess but damn reality sucks! not all of it, mind you, just the bits in life which would or could have made it a whole lot better. it's these fragments of reality which really make a difference in how u view ur life, how u handle ur life, how u cope with life. without them..the world just seems to be a mundane one...a routine...predictable, certain, safe. i need something or someone to give me the adrenalin rush i so long for! to give me the necessary push in persevering...to push my will power to its limit. i need it to spark the flittering flame in me, to make me radiate with life, to make me live! after all said...do i have the guts to face this source of life? am i adventurous enough to move out of my comfort zone? do i have the courage? bravery and a bit of rebellion is needed. can i afford to rebel?
ok...that was just random thoughts just flowing through my head at this hour of the night... just needed to type them out...as a proof of my 'profound' mind. haha...so hopeless at it. until my next update...i'm swept up.
ok...that was just random thoughts just flowing through my head at this hour of the night... just needed to type them out...as a proof of my 'profound' mind. haha...so hopeless at it. until my next update...i'm swept up.
March 06, 2005
uni life, finally
uni life started...finally. is it an occasion to rise to or to fall into a pit of despair and stress?? however the outcme i guess it's all up to me but..darn! it is defiantely intimidating to be among the whites! maybe it's just me but i feel as if thier eyes are always observing my every move..my every mistake and every stupid fumble. they just seem so patronising! maybe it's just my imgination....i hope it is. if not this will turn out to be the worst 4 years of my studying life! fortunately there's still the ex-trinity people to mix with and christina!
i had my first taste of clubbing recently. not bad actually. didn't mind the smoke and alcohol. had a drink myself! haha... the music and rhythm just had me going. don't mind going again..but i don't think i'll be visiting a club in the near future. i need a break from fun to get my mind orientated to assignments and work!
another great news...i've managed to pass the initial stage of auditoning for this uni play! will be going for the second stage of selections this monday. can't wait..hopefully i'll be successful and a part in the play will be mine! i know it sounds so desperate..but if u know me well enough u would know how important and interested i am in the theatre. i will do anything to be involved in a stage production....well almost everything. i won't beg, steal or cheat for it. haha...the experience gained from being involved in one will be so enriching. i just can't wait. the idea of it just gets my nerves all jumping and my mind racing! now all i can do is just do my best and pray!
ok..enough writing. have to get down to my work! tutes will be starting this coming week so the work load will be piling up. i have to get down to it...soon... so till the next update...first impressions do leave lastings one.
i had my first taste of clubbing recently. not bad actually. didn't mind the smoke and alcohol. had a drink myself! haha... the music and rhythm just had me going. don't mind going again..but i don't think i'll be visiting a club in the near future. i need a break from fun to get my mind orientated to assignments and work!
another great news...i've managed to pass the initial stage of auditoning for this uni play! will be going for the second stage of selections this monday. can't wait..hopefully i'll be successful and a part in the play will be mine! i know it sounds so desperate..but if u know me well enough u would know how important and interested i am in the theatre. i will do anything to be involved in a stage production....well almost everything. i won't beg, steal or cheat for it. haha...the experience gained from being involved in one will be so enriching. i just can't wait. the idea of it just gets my nerves all jumping and my mind racing! now all i can do is just do my best and pray!
ok..enough writing. have to get down to my work! tutes will be starting this coming week so the work load will be piling up. i have to get down to it...soon... so till the next update...first impressions do leave lastings one.
January 19, 2005
love love love
had a lovely chat with christina today at her place. talked about lots of things... missing the good old days of having our usual talking sessions in our room or her room into the wee hours of the night. oh i also remember nights just sitting and talking in imran's room...that was loads of fun too. imran can be so feminine sometimes..hahaha...that's what happens when a guy spends almost everyday in the presence of 3 females. next year i'll be back in melbourne but things are going to be so different! going to learn to adapt to living with my cousin. no more late night chatting. no more friends being a door away. haih...just got to adapt to the changes. but there is one thing i am looking very much forward to...the start of uni!!!! i am officially a student of the University of Melbourne!! I AM A UNI STUDENT! woohooo!! sounds so mature now...
food for thought... is loving someone of the opposite sex at this time and age really love? is living and breathing for a guy now worth it? what happens to a couple of this age? i mean after the courting and all..what happens? can't be marridge....then what? i think if we do get into a relationship at this age we should approach the whole thing with a very open and objective mind...mature mind. think before feeling. i mean it's sad but practical. there will be break ups and make ups. to not hurt or fall into the pits of despair, ruling our feelings with the head instead of the heart is the most appropriate approach to this boy girl relationship stuff. but then again it's easier said then done. just bear one thing in mind...the future of your life is more important and not worth getting screwed up over one person whom u'll most likely will not be spending your entire life with. it's just not worth it.
enough about the soppy stuff in life. love (as in bgr love) will remain an empty word for me until i have accomplished what i have set out to do and finally decide to settle down.
enough rambling....oh here's a chinese new year wish to all who celebrates it GONG XI FA CAI! until my next update....paint the world red this year with the happiness in us!
food for thought... is loving someone of the opposite sex at this time and age really love? is living and breathing for a guy now worth it? what happens to a couple of this age? i mean after the courting and all..what happens? can't be marridge....then what? i think if we do get into a relationship at this age we should approach the whole thing with a very open and objective mind...mature mind. think before feeling. i mean it's sad but practical. there will be break ups and make ups. to not hurt or fall into the pits of despair, ruling our feelings with the head instead of the heart is the most appropriate approach to this boy girl relationship stuff. but then again it's easier said then done. just bear one thing in mind...the future of your life is more important and not worth getting screwed up over one person whom u'll most likely will not be spending your entire life with. it's just not worth it.
enough about the soppy stuff in life. love (as in bgr love) will remain an empty word for me until i have accomplished what i have set out to do and finally decide to settle down.
enough rambling....oh here's a chinese new year wish to all who celebrates it GONG XI FA CAI! until my next update....paint the world red this year with the happiness in us!
January 03, 2005
holidays....
my mind has not been in active mode until now...haha...so i'm updating my blog! been busy meeting people and catching up on stuff. went to s'pore for christmas and had a blast. oh before s'pore went to lumut and i have finally gotten a tan back! i was so disgustingly fair before this! one downfall of studying in melbourne...losing my tan! i've added the link to the pics i took there. just click on the link at the next table thingy...scroll down it and u shall find the link...
the past year has been simply eventful...good and bad. well..the tsunami disaster was not a good ending to the year but..i believe that it happened for a reason. pretty hard for me to explain myself on the blog...i think God ( or the mightier being) made this disaster happen to slap mankind in the face...to make man see that all the war and focus on terrorism that has been escalating throughout the year is so meaningless and a waste of life. i believe this disaster happened to divert the wasted energy on something meaningless to something more humane and meaningful...saving lives instead of killing. my deepest condolences to everyone who has lost family or friends to the massive tidal wave.
i think this is enough said....till my next update...a year of events, a year of memories, a year of change, another year awaits...
the past year has been simply eventful...good and bad. well..the tsunami disaster was not a good ending to the year but..i believe that it happened for a reason. pretty hard for me to explain myself on the blog...i think God ( or the mightier being) made this disaster happen to slap mankind in the face...to make man see that all the war and focus on terrorism that has been escalating throughout the year is so meaningless and a waste of life. i believe this disaster happened to divert the wasted energy on something meaningless to something more humane and meaningful...saving lives instead of killing. my deepest condolences to everyone who has lost family or friends to the massive tidal wave.
i think this is enough said....till my next update...a year of events, a year of memories, a year of change, another year awaits...
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