procrastinator

i'm the procrastinator of the year! my mid semester tests are coming up but i'm still stalling my studying and stuff. i just feel so not into the studying mode. i would have really loved to have taken a year off studying just to go travelling around the world. to see thigns i'll never see back home. but i doubt my parents would have let me. sometimes i think the asian attitude of 'studies first' is not that beneficial. i mean yeah it's good cause it keeps us focused on our goals in life and stuff but it takes away the joy of living young and just experiencing things when we're stil in our youth! there's like people my age who has already seen most of europe and bits of asia. i'm still so 'ulu'! waiting to discover the world after graduation is kind of impossible too...cause i'm sure it'll be my responsibility to get a job immidiately instead of galavanting around the world. so technically speaking i'll only be able to see the world when i'm in my 40's. i don't want that to happen! haih...but what to do 'studies first'. make my parents proud.

if things happen for a reason then if something does happen should u take it as a sign?? ok that was just a random thought. oh went for dance camp last weekend and it was so fun!! i wish it didn't have to end so quickly. i want to still be at the camp now talking and socialising with all the people there. the company made the trip a whole lot better than i'd expected it to be. plus the food and place was superb! star gazing was just so overwhelming...the sky was just fileld wih beautiful glittering stars...a sky i never get to see in the city. it was just amazing. oh and saw a couple of shooting stars too but they went by too quickly for me to make a wish. i have one wish which i trully would want to come true....but i doubt it's possible.

here's the link to the camp photos:
camp photos

anyway, enough procrastinating and to the books i SHOULD go.

till the next update....destiny guides but choice determines.

trying desperately

i'm trying desperately to keep my head into my essay writing but i keep getting distracted! example...blogging instead of writing my essay! this is bad! i have all my facts at hand but i just can't get myself to concerntrate. oh ya..HAPPY BIRTHDAY HEE HUNG! not like he's ever going to read my blog.. can't wait fro my b'day cause then it'll mean i'll be almost a month away from going home.. and i'll be 19! happy, happy, joy, joy. actually i don't think i'll feel any different beoing 18 or 19. the big difference will come when i hit the twenties!! i'll feel so old! i'm actually a year away from it! oh no! time passes by really quickly. i can't believe i was starting primary school 13 years ago...seems like yesterday. i can still remember my first day of school...all the fun stuff i did when i was still a young naive student in a girls' school. and then the transistion into a co-ed school...stella! i miss those stella days. i miss all my friends back home! thank god for msn! how will ever survive without it! at least i can still ramble and talk nonsense with them via msn. i miss seeing them in person.

something has been on my mind for quite some time now...trying to get the possibility out of my head but can't seem to. it gets me thinking of it ever so often tht it's driving me crazy! i keep telling myself no but the yes always seems to empower it. the possibility of it happening is quite great actually...but i know it cannot happen. it'll be wrong. i should just remain being the normal me whenever contact is made. ok..sorting the mess in my head out. phew! i think i'll be able to survive for the next few days without thinking about this matter. when uni starts things will go back to normal...i hope. wait..but i don't want it to be normal! i want the abnormal happening to me. haha ok tht sounds weird. argh! i'm rambling. just shows that i need to stop blogging and get back to my essay writing!

so till my next update....fate and heart determines all.

ps HAPPY APRIL FOOLS!