the 'beauty' of life

hoi tute this week really brought up a thought provoking question....is beauty fabricated? is it an invention of man for the benefit of man?(man as in human not the gender) it is arguable that the recognition and perception of beauty is innate but how far is that true? i think pictures and images placed into our minds by society and culture does influence our perception of beauty-physical beauty not inner beauty. the whole game of attraction between the opposite sex is based on superficial aspects. what makes you approach a guy/gal whom you've never even talked to before? physical attraction. you never see a girl who is obese, 'not pretty' being approached by anyone. why is the world so unfair. i guess this is why i love the movie shallow hal. but will that ever happen in the real world? i have lost hope for the male race nowadays. unless i witness something to prove me wrong, to me the world has always and will always revolve around the physical things. sad but true. i am willing to change my view....one day.

i have a fear...a fear of uncertainty. i don't know why but i do. someone once asked me why do i not like to get involved with a person...and i answered bacause of the uncertainty of it. i guess the uncertainty i'm referring to is the emotional uncertainty. how long will the relationship last? at this age, marridge will obviously not be on the list. so how far will it go? how far can it go? is there any use of getting involve then anyway? i think the answers most people will give is 'it's the experience of it that counts'. what experience? the experience of rejection? the experience of commitment? the experience of courtship? what experience??? how does it help anyway? it just makes u go into depression and u'll be hurting inside and at the same time hurting others. i really don't see the purpose of getting into a relationship. haih....but i guess nature works in mysterious ways....the journey of life involves ups and downs...the ups, bringing joy and happiness...the downs, bringing strength and hope.